Tears!

I can't stop crying! I've been crying off and on all week, since Allen was admitted to ICU. The tears come anytime I see AW start to cry (which sadly, has been quite often lately). The tears come in the hospital room holding his hand and telling him that I love him. The tears come as I see his wife hug him, talk to him, or kiss his head. The tears come as I look ahead to the holidays. The tears seem to just keep coming!

I'm not ready to lose my father-in-law. I'm not ready to have my husband lose his dad. I'm definitely not ready to have my boys lose their grandpa. I keep praying for a miracle, but as the days go on and there seems to be little improvement, it seems like there won't be a miracle. I'm not ruling it out, just a bit doubtful. I'm only human...

I want Allen to stick around for many, many more years!

And tonight I just can't stop crying about it!